Risa Sheppard has allowed us to share an article she wrote in 2013 for Pilates Style Magazine. She credits Pilates and life lessons of faith she learned from her mother to her recovery. Risa's story will inspire you to "rise above" in the face of adversity.
After doctors removed a large tumor near her brain, Risa Sheppard was unable to walk or talk. Today, she’s back running her teacher training business, thanks in part to Pilates.
It was a sunny Saturday in March of 2006. I was meeting my longtime friend and client, Katherine, for lunch. As I stood
outside the restaurant, my head was spinning. I was seeing stars and had difficulty standing up. I made it through part of lunch but then had to excuse myself, explaining, “I need to go home as I think I have food poisoning.” (The fact that I
had these symptoms before lunch should have been a clue!) In fact, for the past three months, I had been feeling dizzy, had a pounding headache and had been throwing up almost daily. I had been to my ear, nose and throat doctor with complaints of losing hearing in my right ear. “Oh, you just don’t want to listen to your husband,” he said. I went to my
internist. “It’s all in your head. Your mother complained of the same thing,” he added. As I drove down the Ventura Freeway after lunch, I started vomiting into a bag. Enough was enough. I needed an answer.
Demand for a Diagnosis
I went back to the ENT doctor. “I want a picture,” I insisted. I knew something was wrong and three months had already
passed. Reluctantly the doctor sent me for an X-ray and an MRI that afternoon. The following morning, he had an answer for me. “Risa, you have a benign tumor in your right ear. It’s called an
acoustic neuroma - it’s a growth in your right inner ear that is pressing against your brain. You have to have it taken out or it will be fatal.”
Acoustic neuroma is a noncancerous growth that develops on the eighth cranial nerve, which connects the inner ear with the brain. The nerve had two tasks: one is involved in transmitting sound; the other helps send balance information from the inner ear to the brain. When they get large enough to press on the brain stem or cerebellum, they can be deadly. Although the acoustic neuroma I had was large, the prognosis was good, but I would have loss of hearing in my right ear and loss of the balance nerve. Despite the dire diagnosis, I actually felt better. An answer! We can fix it! A week later, I had surgery at
St. Vincent’s Hospital. I was told I would be up and about in five days.
Unexpected Complications
After my initial surgery, I did not wake up. It turned out the area of the surgery was not draining. The surgeon
explained to my husband and father, “If we don’t put a drain in she may die.” So I had to have a second surgery to put in a shunt. Although the second operation, which took about four hours, was successful, I did not wake up for another day. It was touch and go for several days and I was in intensive care for two weeks. During this time, I was later told I had a tremendous headache and kept screaming, “I want to cut my head off!” When I finally did awake, my head was bandaged, I had IVs coming out of my arms, and I didn’t recognize anyone around me. I could barely talk or eat and needed assistance even drinking a glass of water.
Lost Weeks
I do not recall a moment of this time. I do remember waking up one night and seeing my father sleeping on the floor next to me! He slept on the floor each night to make sure I had somebody I knew there in the mornings when I awoke. Having him there was a great comfort and somehow helped me feel safe. My husband tells me he performed simple Pilates moves on my body, such as stretching my hamstrings, back, neck and shoulders. He knew how important it was
since my body was so used to it. He made sure my back “stayed in alignment” by adjusting my hips so they lined
up properly! I don’t remember seeing my staff at the hospital, but I know they came. My assistant at the time visited me daily and played Scrabble with me to help my brain synapses. Eventually, I was moved out of the ICU and could start
walking, but I had to have a belt around my waist to help hold me up. I was dizzy at first; however, as days went by, I became more stable. My five-day hospital stay ended up lasting for three and a half weeks! Worse yet, I had little
control over my body, and for an active Pilates teacher, that was very hard to accept.
Always in Motion
I was born and raised in Los Angeles; my father was an editor at the
Los Angeles Examiner and my mother was a “Donna Reed” type who was overprotective and nurturing. My mother always told me I could achieve anything I set my
mind to and taught me to be honest, loving, and forgiving of myself and others. Most importantly, she taught me to “rise above all things,” words I would remember as I recovered. Even as a child, I was very active - bike riding, tree
climbing, and swimming were my favorites. I also had the acting bug from a young age; I attended
Hollywood High
and then
University of California, Los Angeles, graduating with a degree in Theatre Arts. At UCLA, I taught creative dramatics to autistic children. I discovered I loved teaching and figured I could always be a therapeutic movement teacher if acting did not work out.
Introduction to Contrology
A few years later, in the mid-1970s, I was “divinely” guided to a little-known movement teacher named
Ron Fletcher, who ran the
Ron Fletcher School of Body Contrology in Beverly Hills. Ron had studied with
Joseph Pilates and
Martha Graham in New York. After Joe died,
Clara Pilates gave Ron her blessing to take the work of her late husband “out west.” I fell in love with the work. I loved the feeling of “being a dancer without being a dancer.” It answered my longing to use my body correctly. I taught at Ron’s studio for five years before embarking on my own. I took the work of the machine to the floor, combined it with Ron’s Floorwork and Joe’s Matwork and what I had learned from
Jack LaLanne, dance masters, and several physical therapists I knew. From that conglomerate of learning, I created
The Sheppard Method, which I call “classic Pilates with a personal touch.” For the next 20 years, I taught it to clients in their homes. When Pilates started to get popular, a physical therapist/chiropractor named
Fred Lerner at the
Beverly Hills Orthopedic Back Institute hired me to teach his therapists this “brand new” way to exercise. They [the therapists] were not happy that a non-therapist was showing them another way to exercise. But soon, after I transferred my home clients to the orthopedic studio, we all started to learn from each other and we are friends and colleagues to this day. My dream was to have my own studio; however, finances always kept me from “taking the plunge.” When the Orthopedic Back Institute closed in
2003, I remember saying, “If not now, when?” So I opened my studio in West Los Angeles, California.
No Time to be Sick
The studio was an instant success. I had to hire extra trainers to accommodate all the new clientele. I established a successful teacher training program. The summer of 2006 was going to be especially busy. A friend’s wedding was coming up and there was another Sheppard Method certification in August. A lot of clients depended on me. I had no time to be sick. But, as the saying goes, life happens when you’re busy making other plans. So I scheduled the
operation, thinking I’d be back in six weeks max. But I wasn’t even released from the hospital until five and a half weeks later, and was in no condition to even consider returning to the studio. I could barely sit up. I couldn’t even bathe myself. I had no appetite and had lost so much weight I looked anorexic.
Mind Power
Some people thought I would never work or be active again, but I refused to believe them. I was determined. My years of spiritual and mental practice gave me the skills to use my mind in a positive and healthy way to achieve the healing my body now craved. As Joseph Pilates said, “It is the mind which shapes the body.” A physical therapist and an occupational therapist helped me to learn to walk and talk again and to perform simple household chores. A speech therapist helped me regain my speech ability and word pronunciation. My dear friend and 25-year Sheppard Method
teacher
Anne Grimaldo would also come to the house twice a week to perform Pilates moves with me. She had me do the Hundreds, modified Roll- Ups and simple Leg Lifts, and stretched my lower back. I remember looking up at her one day and saying, “Gosh, we’re great!” Those simple moves and the care with which Anne instructed helped me feel psychologically and physically like there was a light at the end of the tunnel. Anne and my other teachers realized
it would take discipline, gentleness and time to see me through. But see me through they did. I credit Pilates for my physical and mental recovery, knowing it accelerated the healing process and allowed me to get back to work full time faster than the doctors had anticipated. After about three months, I was able to stand up in the shower without my husband holding me up, stay up past 6 p.m. and perform everyday tasks with greater ease. But it was slow. And I
missed work, missed the studio and missed my clients and teachers.
Back to Work
One day, a long-term client of mine called and said, “I miss you and Pilates. I don’t care what you do, just sit there and tell me what to do.” So I did. I went to the studio and sat next to her, telling her to “use the blue spring, take off the red spring” and watched as she performed the leg and footwork and other moves. I was back. Sort of. A week later, I decided to try the Reformer for the first time since my surgery, using one spring only. The next time I graduated to two. At first I could only work for five minutes, then 10. Soon I got it up to a half hour. I would start with just the
leg and footwork on the Reformer, then move to modified abdominals. I remember how good the Short Spine felt to me, how good it was to stretch. Whenever I was able to perform a new move, I felt as though I had won a million dollars.
An Unexpected Setback
The challenge came when I went back to teaching, about four months after surgery. I started with one client a day, though I was used to teaching up to 10 in a day. Then I decided to do two. Unfortunately, I couldn’t make it
through the second session. I started to cry. Irv, my wonderful client, couldn’t have been more understanding. Gradually, though, over the next three months, I was able to increase my clientele from one or two a day, up to four and
five by the next month. It wasn’t until January 2007, six months later, that I felt able to take on a full schedule of clients.
I would say it took me a good two years to fully regain my strength. I am so grateful to my wonderful teachers, my fabulous family, and generous friends for all their help in seeing me through this life experience. Today, almost seven years later, life is good and getting better. Though I can’t hear out of my right ear, and I may not have a balance nerve
(which means I can’t do super-advanced Pilates moves), my studio is going strong. I am back doing teacher training, workshops and working out up to 10 clients in a day! I also did a DVD,
A Gentle Formula for a Strong Body (Sheppard Method, 2010).
A New Sense of Empathy
My experience has enabled me to have more empathy for others with brain trauma. I’ve been teaching Pilates to
Katherine Wolf, a 30-year-old stroke patient, who was hospitalized for a year and a half. She couldn’t walk or talk well and had little balance. We’ve been working together twice a week for almost a year; her balance is much better
and her strength is improving. I intend on becoming more and more involved with brain trauma and its recovery
through Pilates. In fact, I gave a talk on my research at the PMA convention in Las Vegas in 2012 with physical therapist and Pilates instructor
Sherri Betz. Since the surgery, I have traveled to Europe twice, and am looking forward to a spring trip to Ireland, my dear mother’s ancestors’ homeland. Ten years ago, I promised to take her there. Unfortunately, she passed away before we could go. But now I intend to keep it. I know that I would not have recovered if it were not for the lessons of faith passed on from her, and the life movements I have learned from Pilates.
Risa Sheppard
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